Update from the Wii #1

Bought the internet channel for my Wii a few hours ago and I'm alreay bored. Poo. Guess I'll just have to update this silly ol' thang. I've been neglecting this again lately, and I know that 95% of my posts are me complaining about how much I suck at updating this, but I'll do better! I promise! I'm going through an exciting phase in my life and I want to have some record of how totally, pissin-in-my-pants scared I am.
Classes start in less than two weeks and I am so fucking scared it is unbelievable. I have absolutely no reason to be afraid. I've done this many times before. I've had nightmares about it for the past week, though. Most of them involve my sister getting hurt and me not being able to do anything. Am I finally ready to be a big sister? :O Oh noooes maybe I am am growing up probably not oh well.
I bought a totally cute handmade messenger bag from Etsy today. It's green and black and cute and one-of-a-kind. For 2 day shipping from Istanbul to NJ, it was like $10. Totally cheaper than I thought it'd be.
In other news, Steve the cat has figured out how to sleep with his eyes open. TOTALLY FUCKING CREEPING ME OUT. Curtains being open at night and the light being off in the bathroom are also things we can add to that list.
I started fiddling with Ps and Ai again, seeing as I'll be using them on a daily basis when classes start. It only took m half an hour to remember how to paste and image. Woo. I'm back to my normal level again, though, so no worries. Made a vintagey Coppertone ad and put it up on my deviantART. 1 view and no comments. This is a low blow to the ego.
Oliver the cat peed on the carpet earlier. I nudged him with my foot to try and stop him. He just peed in the spot I nudged him to. Now I have two pee stains instead of one. Great.
Meh. Running out of things to say. Downloading a game called Last Chaos. Hoping it doesn't completely ruin my computer like Archlord did. I miss that game. ):
TA FOR NOWW <3

Officially terrible at updating this.

Trying to remember it from now on. Sorry Mellybelly! Let's see if I can sum up the past months in one blog post.

• I went to Warped Tour this year with Bree. Can't say too much about it because TURNS OUT I DON'T REMEMBER SHIT FROM FIVE MINUTES AGO. Since February, we've become really close friends. She's there for me now more than anyone.
• I got fired from my shitty job. I collapsed in pain one night and had to have Ross come and get me. Thinking a benign cyst had just burst, I went home. Jade (my manager) wanted me to call and ambulance, but lack of insurance kept me from letting her. To shut her up, Ross just said he'd take me. Next day? Got fired through a TEXT. Bad ass.
• Bree and I spent close to 6 hours cleaning my room. It looks like I just moved in. Throwing useless junk away makes me feel good. Maybe I'll do this cleaning thing more often. I think we used something like eleven trash bags.
• Greg's been MIA for two months now. He said he'd let me know how things turned out after his hearing, but I haven't gotten anything. Taking the lack of contact as not good. :/

I've been thinking abut Greg so much lately. I wish he'd hurry up and get his sentence over with. I cried over him for the first time in months last night. It sucks being away from people you care about. I know that he'll be a totally different person when he gets out, but I'm willing to wait and see. He will always be the most important person to me and I will never forget how he changed me.
I got rid of almost everything any exboyfriend has given me. I kept a stuffed dog in a butterfly sweater that Isaiah gave me, though. Not sure why I couldn't get rid of it. Maybe because he's the only ex I could ever consider being friends with?
Man, being fired sucks.

See you three months from now! :D

27 May 2009

Nothing to report here. A sudden loss of interest in life has caught my mother's attention and earned me a near lethal dosage of concerned sighs. I wonder when things will start to lighten up.

After all: it's always darkest before the sun rises.

It's been forever.

I've been neglecting this blog. I've been neglecting the internet, period. I'm never home anymore. I'm always either working, at Pete and Mary's, or asleep.
This weekend was unbearabley hot. I went swimming with a german shepherd who has been known to bite the hell out of my arm. I love wake-and-bakes with Pete's mom at the kitchen table. I'm a bad, bad girl who does illegal things.
In other news, my boss was in a car accident and cracked her neck. Everyone was super bummed at work Friday, but I stayed happy and bright to try and cheer everyone up. It worked. (:

Mellybelly just burped behind me. Yucky! I still love her though. I missed her! I didn't get to see her Friday. She's wearing a hot-dog-eating contest shirt. I bet she won.

HURDY GURDY DERP DERP DERP

March 27th, 2009 (attempt #2)

Today is my first day off all week and I'm spending it humming lullabies and letting down my friends.
I desperately need to go on a road trip. It's been so long since Kim and I just drove, not caring where we ended up. I need to get away from here. This city can seem so smothering.
For the first time in my life, I am anxious for the summer. I miss the lake. I miss the water. I miss my baby bird. I miss Matt and Herb and Jake. I miss the fires and daddy-long-legs and playing in the sand. I miss flip-flops and short-shorts and tank-tops and anything else that has a dash in it. I miss "initiation" and mocking people. But most of all? I miss sleeping under the stars, laying out on a damp towel in the dirt, and not caring about my future. I used to try and convince myself that if I laid still enough, time would stop, and I could lay like that forever.
This summer will be different, though. This summer won't live up to the last. I've got to work and there are people I'll have to take care of. I feel like my life has been ripped away from me and given to someone more deserving, and all I've been left with are hopeless dreams and empty promises.

New blog. :3

New blogs always remind me of brand new notebooks. I love brand new notebooks. I love them a lot.

I've recently come to the conclusion that I have the most amazing group of friends in the world. It's probably because we rode around in the back of some guys huge truck last night and got filthy and then went to Taco Bell. I really like how comfortable I am around Jess and Shauna. They totally could have mocked me more when the packet of sauce exploded in my face, but they didn't. Yay.

I have plans with Kimberly tonight. We're probably going to spend the night drinking in the bowling alley parking lot (our usual) and filling out some more job applications. Our current employer is an entertaining alcoholic, but we work with a bunch of perverted fucks.

Mellybelly, just so you don't feel left out if you happen to stumble across this, I love you. :3 BFF 4 EVA d00d.

Oh! Something new to add to the list of obsessions! Currently it's comprised of Heath Ledger as the Joker, Union Lake, driving on the wrong side of the road with my lights out, Call of Duty and Starcraft, Civilization 3, Facebook, and bubble baths. Can anyone guess what it is? That's right! The Hush Sound! Godddd they're amazing. They make my heart melt.

This blog post is getting awfully long (by my standards) so I suppose I'll end it here and post something insignificant later that will make my mother roll her eyes.